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Ok so....this journal has waaayyyy too much baggage.


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AWW!! [Tue//4//05//2005
[ mood | sleepy ]

I looooovvveee this song :o)

"The Closest Thing"

You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile i'd like to earn.
The closest thing to perfect,
In a hollywood to burn.
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me.

[Chorus: x2]
I'd love to be,
The shoulder that you cry on.
I'd love to be,
The friend you call when things are great.

You're the dream that hasn't ended,
And I'm still anxious for rest.
Your words they seem to hang above my head.
You're the bud before the flower,
Unfurls into full bloom.
Captivating beauty,
But it maybe all too soon.
You're the song that writes a story,
But leaves a lot to read.
The closest thing to perfect,
But the farthest thing from me.

[Chorus x2]

And like I really deserve a chance to,
Sit across the table,
And tell you that I think you're wonderful.
And I think you're something special.
I guess this is my only chance to,
Say I wish I knew you,
Because I'm sure you're wonderful,
If I'd get to know you.
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boys. [Fri//3//25//2005
[ mood | aggravated ]

i don't get how a guy could sit there...and tell you "you're too pretty for me"...if the person is INTERESTED...wouldn't you fuckin be overjoyed and take that pretty girl and be with her instead of talking yourself down??

Maybe i'm just a dummy...but wouldn't it make more sense to just...go with that person...even if you do think they are 'too hot' for you...why should that matter??...be happy that you found yourself someone that is good looking and deal.

Could it be the fact that they fear rejection?? Possibly....because boys are lame and don't know how to do anything...so why is it up to the girl to be the tough one and risk rejection...although most of us don't really care...but we would prefer not to hear the words "you're too pretty for me" in their rejection speech...that's a low blow.


i'm done with my stupid rant.

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Aww how cute... [Mon//3//14//2005
[ mood | bitchy ]

31 Things Guys Should Know About Girls
Written by a guy. After years of experience

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do.

2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.

3. Beware of every single male relatives and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.

--8.5. If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.

9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...

10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy.

--11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the crap out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms or friends...that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.

27. Don't marinade the cologne.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice.

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

31.Don't ever do anything wrong. girls remember things for life and anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.

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whoever is fucking with my car...it's not funny anymore. i really dont feel like dying thanks.
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[ mood | bored ]

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
03. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
04. Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. Put this in your journal it is not an option!!

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... [Sat//12//25//2004
[ mood | crappy ]

i would just like to take this time to share with everyone the comment that i've recieved recently to my prior post...

2004-12-24 17:18 (from (link) Select

The reason why you attract fake people, (is) because you yourself, is fake. All (I) have ever seen you do is living a gossipy lie so you will somehow gain affection or attention from other fake people like yourself. All you've wanted was acceptance and appreciation and you really did not care if that meant spreading cruel rumors, talking about your friends, or saving your ass by claiming you never said a word. You haven't created a monster, you've brought two people together that realize that no matter how many times they've given you a chance, you will never change, and you will perpetually do anything you can to gain SOMETHING, even if it means hurting people around you. They don't think they are God's gift to creation, nor have they ever. Maybe they are wordly and smart because they don't revolve their lives around bringing other people down to feel better about themselves. Trust me, the lies you've told between them will never fade, and they both know exactly how you are, and understand that's just the way it is. Sure, it has bothered them, seeing as how you've done countless things to lose their faith in you as a good person, but why does it shock or just come to you now? This has been going on for years. Don't put on the question mark face now.

Maybe they are everything you hate in life because they've gained each others appreciation by just being themselves, and not revolving their lives around FAKENESS. They don't have to talk about you to make them like each other more, unlike you've done in the past. Sure, we've all said something negative or spread gossip about people for five minutes of fame. It will never gain you true respect, remember that.

Just be yourself, and be true to others, and you will gain true friendship. I can say that I've made plenty of mistakes in life regarding real and fake friends, but at this point, I know who's for real and who's not, and I will cherish that forever.

Sometimes people DO talk about people for legit reasons. I know I've been told things as constructive criticism, and no matter how much it hurt, I tried to improve from it. People will always talk. Be confident enough to realize that if you are honest with yourself and other people, you won't have anything to worry about.

Merry Christmas."

Nice huh?...

well i think that whoever you are....needs to get a clue. I have never been anything but nice to people. EVER SINCE I MOVED HERE I HAVE DEALT WITH FUCKING BULLSHIT FROM ALL YOU PEOPLE. I was told that i needed to change...into one of...you...if i wanted to make it. So i did...and i didn't like it. Yea i know that i have talked about people...but so have all of you...don't say that you have never been a part of gossip. WE went to Solvay...the rumor mill. everyone has participated in this stupid game of high school fucking drama. And these two people that i was talking about...know that they've done me wrong...and i did them wrong back because revenge is the only language people understand. But anything that i have ever done that was cruel...had a fucking reason. There's a lot of shit that you all don't know about...because i don't like to admit when i was made a fool out of.

And yes...at points EVERYONE is fake...but there is a time to be fake and a time to be real...and there is a big difference in being fake and shutting your mouth and watch things happen.

I'm not fucking perfect...but i do know that i have been walked all over by .EVERY.SINGLE.ONE.OF.YOU. No exceptions.

so whoever wrote that nasty comment and had enough nreve to put merry christmas needs to grow some balls put their name and fucking get a reality check. You know nothing about the situation because you've never heard my side...all you've heard is the compulsive liars side that woud say anything in order to make herself look good...and the other one is just a sheep...

i'm done feeling sorry for both of them...i'm done trying to make them feel better when they come crying to me that someone was talking about them and they couldn't believe I WAS RIGHT. Of course i was right...i have a good judge of character. (or rather...my parents do.)

Anyways. Merry Christmas to all my friends :o)

<33 Dana

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pissy entry... [Thu//12//23//2004
[ mood | cranky ]

ok...you know what really gets on my nerves...FAKE PEOPLE. Unfortunatly...most of the people i know are fake. I went on a mission to get the extremely fake people out of my life, and you know what? If i did that...i would have no friends because the only people i attract is FAKE PEOPLE! And even if they are out of my life...they still talk about me. I can't seem to get rid of people like that. If you don't like me, don't talk about me and the time when i was friends with you and you back stabbed me and were a bitch, and all those other times that you cried to me and told me that you hated people for talking about you. I can't help it that you fell into the same hole that you were in before. I don't know why it bothers me so much...well maybe because it's my fault that you both know each other. Now i am kicking myself because i've created a monster...you both together = everything that i hate in life. You think you are god's gift to creation and you know everything and you are so worldly and smart...pfft...please.

Shame on me for even bothering being there for either of you...

don't leave nasty comments...my journal. i can talk about whatever i want...these are my feelings...and i bet you talk about me and how "pathetic" i am...think what you want. i don't give a shit.

thingy...Collapse )

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happy post! [Fri//12//17//2004
[ mood | chipper ]

I'm going to start using this again i think...

:o) So yea...me and Janelle went to the mall yesterday and we bought eachother christmas presents..it was difficult to find something that we wanted...finally 3 hours later we figured that we would just go to Victoria's Secret and buy eachother something. I got cute pj's because i would like to spend more time in bed. I bought her the bra that she wanted. It worked nicely.

I got a new coach bag recently and i know you all want to see it!!!

But...i really want this one.

And my aunt Shirley now works at a coach outlet...so you know what that means!!! hell yessss discount babyyyy!!!

now i have to go look at speakers for my car...this makes me happy ( )
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stupid shit... [Tue//12//14//2004
[ mood | crappy ]


haha...ummm i haven't written in this thing in like forever... i hope everyone missed me!!! (not.) The only people who really read this are people who hate me and try to find things in here to bitch about...


sooo...ummm...my car is being worked on so i have to drive this little 'shit-box-neon-piece-of-ass' car...i fondly call it the 'heap'. It's ugly. It's not as fast as my t-bird. It's small. No snow tires.(IT'S SNOWING IN SYRACUSE...I NEED SNOW TIRES ON THAT HEAP...it weighs like...4.5 pounds.)...hate...it...

Ryan got really sick on friday and i took care of him because i'm the sweetest :o). I made him soup!

Express is amazing...everyone that works there is so nice and...i'm becoming obsessive with shopping while i work. Speaking of shopping i bought a new pair of shoes last night...

aren't they cute???!!

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Few pictures from back in the day... [Wed//11//24//2004
[ mood | amused ]

i need some new ones.
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[ mood | awake ]

I did a little bit of editing...i made all my political entries FRIENDS ONLY. because those are the only people that really care what i have to say anyways...and plus i was getting sick of little fuck-tards leaving me rude anonymous comments (which no one could see but me anyways.)

I got a new job *at Express!!!!* My life is complete. I get to be around clothes all damn day long and that makes me happy. :o)!!


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update! [Sat//9//11//2004
[ mood | chipper ]

Janelle came over today...

Things have been patched up.

I feel so much better...

I'm glad that you fucked up because i proved you a liar.

:0) <33

Anyways...I have come to the conclusion that i am obsessed with older music...like...1997 stuff...I don't know why. But i went out and bought the Sarah McLachlan cd. Can't stop listening to it.

I also bought Jordan Knight's because all i had was a song and i wanted the whole cd...it was 4.99! Love it.

\\.I also spent 100.00 on 2 pairs of jeans, i'm hopeless.//

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Fun-ness [Mon//9//06//2004
[ mood | cranky ]

Last night;

Went to go see Busta Rhymes, Petey Pablo & Twista with Alyssa(Twinny) and Ryan!!

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wow...drammaaaa! [Tue//8//31//2004

and you would think the drama would end after high school...

please cut me off one day so i have a reason to run into your precious car.
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surveyyy [Mon//8//30//2004

[ Current Clothes ] shorts and a hoodie
[ Current Mood ] cranky
[ Current Music ] early evanescence
[ Current Taste ] nothing
[ Current Make-up ] none

[ Current Hair ] down
[ Current Annoyance ] this damn entry
[ Current Smell ] my sniffer aint workin so none
[ Current Desktop Picture ] cristina aguilera...
[ Current Book you're reading ] none!
[ Current CD in CD Player] car-lacuna coil, room- some random mixes, down here-evanescence
[ Current DVD in player] um...i think that wierd horse movie that my mom bought.
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] Pink!
[ Current Refreshment ] water
[ Current Worry ] if my car will pass inspection.

[ You Touched ] Dad
[ You Talked to ] Dad
[ You Hugged ] Ryan
[ You Instant messaged ] Twinny
[ You Yelled At ] errr...i don't remember
[You Kissed ] Ryan

[ Food ] italian
[ Drink ] perrier
[ Color ] Pink
[ Album ] Stripped
[ Shoes ] addidas flip flops...
[ Candy ] reeses
[ Animal ] llama!
[ TV Show ] Big Brother, Sex and the City( wah!)
[ Movie ] Any movie that can hold my attention for longer than 5 mins.
[ Song ] self deception
[ Vegetable ] green beans!
[ Fruit ] nanners!, kiwi, strawberries (although i seem to be allergic to them)
[ Cartoon Character ] it's a tie between ren and stimpy!
[ Number ] 4
[ Season ] summer
[ Sport ] football
[ Day ] friday

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[ Pictured your crush naked? ] seen it
[ Actually seen ur crush naked ] awww yes :o)
[ Been in love ] yes
[ Cried when someone died ] yes
[ Lied ] yes

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[ Coke or pepsi ] coke
[ Flowers or candy] candy...
[ Tall or short ] tall

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do u notice first?] how they carry themselves
[last person u slow danced with] Ryan...in his room, cause he's a hopeless romantic! :o)

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?] I think...Brittany does.
[makes you smile?] Ryan
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] Anything having to do with Janelle.
[who do you have a crush on?] um lets see,,,MY BOYFRIEND.
[has a crush on u?] Ryan...anyone else?
[is easiest to talk to] Alyssa

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] yea
[save aol/aim conversations] some
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] only for a day
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yea...

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] yes
[been rejected] yes
[rejected someone] yes
[used someone] not on purpose
[cheated on somebody] yes
[done something you regret] a long list of regrets....

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone] Nina

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U
[smoke cigarettes] no!
[could u live without the computer?] i have for the past 4 days
[color ur hair] i have.
[ever get off the damn computer] yea a lot
[habla espanol] si, hablo espanol, perro no me gusta.
[drink alchohol?] yes
[like watching sunrises or sunset] sunsets
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] emotional

-N U M B E R-
of times I have had my heart broken? 3 times.
of hearts I have broken?: i think one. once.
of guys I have kissed?: lets see...like...18
of continents I have lived in?: one
of scars on my body?: like.... too many to count

I AM : cranky!.
I WANT : a Ryan.
I HAVE : a hard time seeing due to lack of contacts.
I WISH : i didn't have to work today.
I HATE : these shorts.
I MISS : Ryan.
I FEAR : being alone.
I HEAR : my cd.
I SEARCH : for clothes.
I WONDER : who i'm working with tonight.
I REGRET : a lot of things
I LOVE : my family, friends and last but not least my wonderful b/f.
I ACHE : in my eye soickets...
I ALWAYS : leave my ring on
I AM NOT : comfortable.
I DANCE : when i feel like it
I SING : in my car
I CRY : a lot
I AM NOT ALWAYS : talkative
I WRITE : in here
I WIN : at....ummm...not a lot
I LOSE : at video games
I CONFUSE : those around me
I NEED : a kissy.

x. -father thinks I am: funny
x. -mother thinks I am: crazy
x. -my boyfriend thinks I am: too cute
x. -three things you are often complimented for: hair
x.-you get embarrassed when: i fall.
x. -makes you happy: Ryan and shoes.
x. -upsets you: a lot.

x. -you keep a diary: this?.
x. -you like to cook: sometimes
x. -you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yes
x. -you believe in love: yes

The finest male you know: ethan hawke has caught my fancy...but Ryan is.
The weirdest person you know: Joe
The loudest person you know: Kari
The sexiest person you know: um...ahha
Your best friends: Kari (been there through everything...), Jana (dependable and wonderful to talk to), Twinny (do i ned to explain???)
The person that knows the most about you: Janelle.
Most boring teacher: mrs fat duggan

Your most overused phrase on IM: lol
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: Ryan
Your best feature: butt? lol
Inside joke: heheh a lot.

Take a shower everyday: yea
Have a(any) crush(es): yes
Want to get married: yea
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're a health freak: ahaha me?
Get along with your parents: yea
Like thunderstorms: yeah

- Ryan: Harringtom
- Rob: Bacon?
- Drew: Big Brother.
- Stephanie: full house?
- Heather: lockler
- Aaron: carter
- Amy: lee
- Will: gay man!
- Paul: nina's ex
- Eve: adam?
- John: bloomfield...augh! die.
- Laura: errr?
- Alex: iancello
- Dave: Rossi
- Ricky: lake

~ NATURAL HAIR COLOR: light brown
~ EYE COLOR: brown
~ BIRTHPLACE: syracuse ny

Cuddle or make out? cuddle
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? hot chocolate
Milk, dark, or white chocolate? dark
Vanilla or chocolate? chocolate

Eat a bug? not purposly
Bungee jump? no
Hang glide? no
Kill someone? no
Have sex with someone you don't love? i have
Kiss someone of the same sex? yes
Have sex with someone of the same sex? er?
Parachute from a plane? no
Walk on hot coals? maybe
Go out with someone for their looks? maybe
For their reputation? no
Be a vegetarian? no
Wear plaid with stripes? no
IM a stranger: i have
Sing karaoke?: ahhh yes
Get drunk off your ass? yes
Shoplift? ahaha no.
Run a red light? all the time....
Star in a porn video? lol  no
Dye your hair blue? no.
Be on Survivor? wouldn't make it
Wear makeup in public? yea
NOT wear makeup in public? yes
Cheat on a test? i cheated on like everything junior year.
Make someone cry? not on purpose
Call your math teacher a motherfucker? love to
Kick a baby? what? lol why!?>.
Date someone more than ten years older than you? er...
Cuss out a priest? wouldn't you go to hell for that?
Take a job as a janitor? no.
Wear a tho-tho-tho-tho-thong? yea...if needed....ew.
Stay up all through the night? if i had to.


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that sounds about right... [Sat//8//28//2004
[ mood | awake ]

Which person on your LJ friends list will murder you for posting ridiculous amounts of these stupid memes all the time?
LJ Username
You will be killed by... mark_one
They will kill you by... banning you from the internet for the rest of your life until you go completely insane
This fun quiz by killtheold - Taken 6698 Times.
New! Get Free Horoscopes from Kwiz.Biz

hehehe! would you really though!?!?!?!?
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[ mood | angry ]

This one's for Brittany...seeing as how she thinks my entries are getting boring.

Here's all the problems my car has...

1. needs a new motor. (again...)
2. the passanger side breaks (rotors?) need to be changed because my dad only got around to changing the drivers side.
3. needs to be inspected...ahaha...i'm like waaaayyy past the date.
4. something else probably because i have never ending car problems.

every day something new breaks.

oh yes and today...my key wouldn't come out of the ignition...i definitly had to like...break my thing to get it out...let's hope it starts.

Just to let you all know...i now work at the YMCA in cicero...along with working at Eckerd. ( yay...can we say 40 hours a week.:0( )

blah blah blah.

I still think Bush needs to win the election.

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guess what everyone!?!??!



that is all.

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